10 things to consider BEFORE you date a drug dealer

April 16, 2010

Is he a doll or a dummy?


In honour of my friend Ms AB, who has just experienced a large fall from grace after her adventures.  Don’t say you weren’t warned before hand… 

1. It’s a job, with hours longer than most jobs – often when you want to spend quality time together.  The phone won’t stop, the people will keep turning up and the novelty will quickly wear off. 

2. It takes a certain personality to do the job – one with big balls and arrogance and the passion for always being right and good at crowd control and one up manship.  For some reason they are often control freaks.  These are not necessarily ideal traits in a boy friend. 

3. Whether you mean to or not if you share the goods it is hard for this not to end up an inequitable arrangement that causes problems – particularly when you fight.  It is probably a good idea to make clear what you can and will give to the relationship in terms of your own goods and services – it  won’t be financially equal but it can help.  It can also help if you take care of your own needs but again if you buy through him you may just give to the pot and not get goods directly and going through someone else may also cause problems.  Whether you want to know or not you should make sure you are aware of the market value of goods you consume.  You are probably getting things that are better than street value, this can also cause health and addiction problems. 

4. It is very hard to explain your boyfriend to your parents, family and many of your friends.  Unless you are excellent at lying or enjoy living a double life or simply don’t care, this will be stressful.  

5. If you work in the ‘real’ world the hours you each keep will clash, as will your attitudes to work.  If your sick leave starts to go up you need to consider you have a problem.  If you can’t understand that sitting around talking is his work and that he may sleep all day then this may also be a problem. 

6. You will be expected to be a hostess but will probably not be trusted.  Or you may be used as a gimp.  Or you may be presumed to be a drug whore and his mates will try and crack on to you.  His female clients will be jealous.  Everyone will be  pissed off it you take him away from being available to do business or just actually want to have some time together or if you try to change anything. 

7. Drug dealers are the worst time keepers in the world, they are always late – sometimes days late.  There is always a reason, usually because of someone else but if you are a timely person do expect to be frustrated and waiting around. 

8. You very much need to remember that the people purchasing goods are not your friends or even your boyfriends friends whilst they are doing business.  If there is nothing to purchase you won’t hear from them.  They may be nice to you, give you things and flatter you – don’t take it personally. 

9.  It is easy to get hooked on the drama and intrigue.  Don’t.  It is all bullshit and never ends.  It is also easy to lose perspective.  Make sure you stay in touch regularly with people outside of this world.  Get out in the sun. 

10.  We all know men like to solve problems presented by their ladies.  However problem solving here can involve getting people to dig their own graves, having people wake up with knives at their throats or at the least some nasty phone calls to sort someone out.  Trust me, it helps no one.  Make it clear you will resolve your own issues though you might appreciate his general good intentions. 

Now this is not to say that it won’t be great and good but at least 5 things from this list are bound to present you growly moments at some stage.  

Dated a drug dealer and have something to add – love to hear from you. 

Are you a drug dealer with points of your own to make? I welcome them, but don’t dare tell me you keep good time – I’ll be asking for referees to verify.  

As for Ms AB – she’s licking her wounds at the house of a friendly customer who ‘has his shit together’ which to her means he is a buyer with money and not a seller.  A bit of her soul got lost somewhere in the points above.  As well as her job and somewhere to live.


138 Responses to “10 things to consider BEFORE you date a drug dealer”

  1. Anonymous said

    ya this is kinda retarded. obviously you’re too high maintenance to date someone that has their own life. Drug dealing isn’t just a job it’s a lifestyle.

    • Rdawg said

      I’m out trapping and shit yes. But my girl only smokes weed and I never pressure her to do any of my hard product or get her hooked and even if I did try she would turn it down. She’ll snort a couple lines of blow here and there but only if we’re out partying. But just because I sell drugs does not mean I fall into any of those categories previously listed. I treat my girl so good and she tells me that every day. She’s with me because she’s in love with me and I’m in love with her. Sometimes I am a little late yes. But only when she’s waiting to get picked up from her house.Never when she needs a ride to an appointment or we’re going on a date or something else that is obviously important. She really doesn’t get into my business, she knows what I do and that’s that. Sure she enjoys going out to eat all the time and what not. But the way I treat my best friends and my girlfriend compared to when I’m working can not be compared. People know not to fuck with me. The people I care about and are close to me can say that I am a damn good guy. Not every drug dealer is a piece of shit. It’s just damn easy money baby. Here’s a tip to my brothers working out here and not punching no clocks, never date a junkie, and never turn a good girl with her head on straight into a god damn junkie. Such a stupid fucking thing to do. Treat her right and you don’t have to get her hooked for her to stay with you.

      • Rdawg said

        Never have cheated on her and have no intention to, what the hell I look like even trading some product for sex (basically paying money) even if I was single haha

      • Rdawg said

        But also let me clarify. I am horrible at being punctual to my clients and even my close homies. But I am never more than 15-20 minutes late to plans I’ve made with my girl. and those are rare occasions. Hell, I’m usually waiting on her ass to finish up her make up or hair and whatever the fuck else women do to take so long in the bathroom. Sounds to me like all these hustlers would be piece of shit boyfriends even if they didn’t slang dope

      • Avril said

        Well said

      • Naynay said

        Wow. I enjoyed your comment and agreed with your advice. You seem like dream boy. Thanks for putting our hopes up!

    • Anonymous said

      And she has explained that life style and explained why it may not work with non-drug dealers.

  2. Anonymous said

    I have dated AND been a drug dealer. I can honestly say that this article is basically true. My current beau is a DD and he is all of the above. He’s late, he’s busy, he’s hella jealous, and he’s generally a major douche bag. Then why am I with him? The excitement really. Well, that and he’s damn charming. I hate boredom and being the girlfriend (and ex dealer) of a drug dealer is constantly entertaining. I DO NOT recommend any kind of personal relationship with a DD as it can be dangerous. I have been hunted down by enemies of his because of our relationship and if it weren’t for my being…experienced in the field I probably wouldn’t be alive. They also tend to be major douches towards their girls to. Often, if he has a bad day or a deal don’t go down good I get the brunt of his anger. He’s never hit me but the fighting and death threats are pretty common around here. If you think you can handle it be my guest, but I’m telling you it isn’t worth it. Lord knows I’m tired.

    • Anonymous said

      How were you hunted by his enemies?

    • Anonymous said

      I’d like to discuss this at length with you- I dated a ‘dd’ for 3 years and needless to say-things didn’t turn out too well. But I didn’t understand a lot of what was happening around me, a combination of naïveté and denial…

      • Anonymous said

        I too was in a relationship with a DD I was. very naive to the fact I got hurt by his cheating n lieing ..He pick me up from work late or sometimes not at all…he would disappear for days….we spent no time together… He was offering oral sex to woman and they were offering oral sex for a hit….I found out by mistake n I was so hurt by it all…And he was making videos with them…All Thoses woman he cheated on me with…

    • Anonymous said

      I know exactly how you feel. I am also an ex dealer, and have dated a few dealers. My current beau is a very high end dealer and he isn’t mean to me (unless he’s pissed off) but he is ALWAYS late, and usually can’t see me for very long anyway. It’s hella’ stressful and tiring but the excitement is undeniable. His rivals have gone after me a few times, but thank God I’m experienced in this kind of business.

    • Heather said

      Guys please reassure me i don’t want to get in trouble for writing some replies it’s just hard without many to talk to about this

    • Nonya bisnes said

      I’m kinda in your boat right now. I’ve never dated a DD and I never wanted to. I have my preference because my common sense assured me of the bs I that comes with it. I’m younger than him and he knows how to manipulate me because of that. He was always secretive I never knew his real name and age. He’s very controlling and even tried to get me a new job and friends.(iknow it sounds good) but no thank you I don’t need him clocking my job and friends these are all ppl he know so wat if I try to leave him ? Then I always got threats but he never put his hands on me then talk bad about me and my family, but then as a defense he would say” oh I was just trying to give u that extra push” thennn always told me how all these other girls want him and call him cute , but he puts up with me instead. I look nothing like the other girls he use to met with .I’m an average nerdy girl. But all those “bad bitches” he speak of is only after his money, but when I leave he gon feel it! I was tired of being verbally abused but he calls it facts , But I’m just ranting sry lol

  3. Lil foot said

    We all flip kilos for a living in our hispanic culture. I never treat women with dis respect ever .. Women arnt attracted to a hard head drug lord. But if you know how to change your personality with your gf vs clients then your the greatest supplier in tha world .. Also girls are all attracted to me as a bad boy every girl wants a bad-boy whos rich think about everything posted above and youl be a genus

  4. No name said

    I’m currently with a DD, & I have to say he’s the sweetest guy I’ve ever met. .
    True the phone does ring a lot. But I come first. PERIOD.
    He’s not mean… And he spoils me.
    It’s exciting and great being with a bad boy who has money but is a gentleman.

    • Anonymous said

      That wont last for long he will change ^^^

      • Anonymous said

        Agreed. I married mine and he was a narcissistic sociopath and he hurt my twins and me and I wish he had never started selling but it’s all he knew after ten years in prison over it. He also used so he stole from me and hit me. I left cuz I was scared for our lives and didn’t want the police to raid the house while I was asleep! This is hell. When I left he had me replaced by a client .

    • Rdawg said

      perfectly explained

  5. Anonymous said

    This story is so confronting. Most points you are spot on. I really want to quit but my whole social life is also centered around the business… Greets from Amsterdam.

  6. Alysha said

    And just remember… U will always be 2# never his 1# he’s 1# is pussy, money, weed..

    • arae said

      I’m not for sure if I’m dating one but I’m starting to c the signs. Ive never actually caught him hut he is being really shady. Changed his phone number once in 2 mons of knowing him, leaves every night for a couple hours, random phone numbers on his phone that he keeps saying are wrong numbers due to the change, only met one of his friends one time & they are always busy. Or he invites me out with them then changes his mind. I don’t think he has a code on his phone but he is real protective of it, takes it to the bathroom when showering. Sometimes he would go to show me some photo on his phone, I would reach for the phone to look closer and he wouldn’t let me take it. I finally called him out on it and he said no but then asked if it was a dealbreaker for me, and what kind of drugs were a dealbreaker for me and when i said pot wasnt a hig deal he started defending all drugs. Lets just say he is done. The lies are too much….oh and he is always late…I used to call it his Jamaican time bc that’s where he’s from….but I’m hip now

      • arae said

        Oh yeah and when leaves for couple hours at night he is telling me that he is going to a pretty bad area in the city to hang with his friend. No one goes there on a reg basis to hang with a friend and just yeasterday he was going to do business with this friend now…but feels he doesn’t need to tell me what. Then acts like I’m all crazy and everything is in my head. He has more anger lately too. Not physical but verbal/body lang and he says pretty mean shit about women in general

      • Rozy said

        To be honest it sounds like your loved one may be hiding an addiction/substance abuse problem, especially with the dealbreaker question, but that is just my opinion… either that or he’s dealing small amounts and using(cutting himself a better deal)…regardless, trust is thr foundation of any relationship and without it being mutual things will always flip flop.

  7. Anonymous said

    It’s important for a dealer to have a ”wifey” type gf that’s down with you. A good dealer doesn’t use drugs himself, aims to move up and improve his business and is a good provider for his family and friends. With those responsibilities comes a lot of stress and that’s where the wifey comes in to help you lessen the hectic lifestyle. A ”reset” button if you will. She will know your deepest secrets and problems and give you good feedback and advice, she will be there to tell you don’t do it when you have a moment of impulse and she is your best friend and homie. If you are a real dealer don’t get involved with female custies or gold diggers that just want the benefit of dating you.

    • Anonymous said

      this made a huge impact on my perspective about my relationship with my dope man boyfriend of 5 years and counting. its frightening how you were on point though, now I know how much I mean to him. it all makes sense! you, my friend, have saved my relationship and there is no possible way I could thank you.

    • Anonymous said

      This is the best post in the world. So helpful and true. ^^^

    • Anonymous said

      I have been suspecting lately my bf of seven years is a drug dealer. At first I was upset bc I thought he was cheating on me, I think he has once or twice with what I now believe to be customers. This is interesting to me bc I am more respectable than most of his friends and the other women he knows (simply bc I have a stable job in a field he and others consider respectable ). Every time I try to leave he tells me how much he loves me and he doesn’t want to live his life without me. I do believe him, but he makes no effort to marry or move our commitment further. His children also never visit at his house. Do you think this is all an effort to hide those he cares about from his dd life?

  8. tha dealer said

    I can clearly see that the person who has written this article has watched yo many movies and never even met a drug dealer

  9. helpppp said

    well, im four months into this and just wanna know how far I can push the fact that I don’t like it. he says he loves me and I can tell its true, but its hard to not feel like second best sometimes with him being out all the time without communication. so many hours go by and its hard not to worry.. how do u guys deal with that??

    • Anonymous said

      what’s a dope man w/o communication???!!? sweetie, it just takes A LOT of patience and trust. my boyfriend of like 5 years and counting, he’s a dealer and he’s constantly busy and stressed so I try helping him out w/ carrying the money and some of the work and do a little bit of serving. its not much yet it makes a huge difference on the both of y’all. view it as “partners in crime” rofl

    • Kristin said

      End it. I just ended a almost 10 month relationship with a dealer. Business and friends will always be more important. Trust me I worried day and night about him. It’s not worth the stress, leave while you can.

    • Anonymous said

      That’s how I feel but I broke up with him because I found out he is not only selling he is smoking it too..He always keeps his phone with him n flips it upside down so when it rings I won’t see who calling.. One day he forgot to take it in the bathroom with him n it just kept ringing so I picked it up to take it to him there was a picture of him naked with a woman giving him oral sex I was shocked and she kept calling…. So I looked at his phone and I looked at his contact info .. I couldn’t believe what I saw all pictures of naked woman and most were giving him oral sex.. I went to his message and found out when he was picking me up late from work it was because he was doing oral sex on his clients… So I put his phone back down andI never confronted him bout it I waited…. The last straw was he gave me STD..and so I left him he told me he was sorry and that he loves me…Do DD do oral sex on there clients.. I thought it suppose to be the other way around…. As of today he still trying to get me back for me no I can’t deal with him doing oral sex on all them woman..

      • Rdawg said

        Yeah thats pretty fucking weird lmfao. Personally, trading any kind of product for any kind of sex is basically just flushing money down the toilet. I would never, even if I didn’t have a girlfriend. And thats pretty fucking weird seeing how he had a girlfriend

      • Anonymous said

        you didnt give him enough sex.

    • Dawn said

      These numbers are in fact true. I have been involved with a dealer for a few months now. I have known him a very long time & know what to expect. He also at least has the curtesy to not involve me,though the paths occasionaly cross. It is a very odd relationship but works for us

    • Heather said

      Agree eventually you try and get use it like myself im trying to get my own life develop hobbies yes I get lonely but we’ve come with an agreement since he works early and often late he turns his phone off at 9 and gives me one day aweek fully to myself yes pple hate me for it but I need quality time too

    • Heather said

      Sorry to say but that’s only I. The beginning eventually they change im dating my drug dealer and he supplied me for 6 months daily than they will control you for the drug than they will make you want to get off the drug bc it’s all about the money they may say for your health but they do it in the beginning as a control tactic bc eventually you give up your soul , the phone always rings that’s a trigger he’s always gone . I feel so alone im too the point I might as well be alone but im in a rut I have no where to go and he knows that , he’s possesive of his belongings and threatens me with not giving me subs like he has to get off the vics but he doesn’t have a clue how hard it is to date someone who is 40 years older than you and in the beginning you even told him you were datig him for the drugs it was an arrangement now he expects me to get clean and still sell the same shit I used i almost hate him for this no he didn’t put a gun to my head he knew I was an addict I knew he was my dealer for 4 years now everythings fucked its a mess my life is a living hell he’s verbally abusive and yes in the beginning he was charming and opened doors and extra gravest and spent time with me its all a facade

  10. Lala said

    Hours go by you don’t hear from him, the first few months is exhausting, then you adjust, then you decide whether to stay or to go..but you do eventually get use to it and freak out less. One thing though, you gotta learn how to trust blindly, you can’t be too demanding, you gotta be hella understanding and just make sure the time spent working (away from you) will be beneficial to you two’s future and not just spending $ on bullshit…But love conquers.

  11. Anonymous said

    agree with much said above,arrogant,selfish,liars,talk ONLY about the dope,mix with people you normally would.nt…real fun when they can.t get anything-bad tempers,abusive,basically they don.t keep a partner and most end up alone like delinquent teenagers.my partner,just a small time dealer,thinks hes a hero for bringing the dope or his suspect so-called friends seem to think so.aagghhh its pathetic.he works -when he can and in between that and his dope NOTHING ELSE exists,middle aged /teenager!!thats why they end up bitter and alone .am interested in hearing more about what women have BEEN through than idiotic love struck girls,believe me babies,live with it longer and you stand to lose a lot.they are control freaks,often very arrogant and often abusive.love doesn.t conquer,commen sense does .


    • Anonymous said

      You are so right mine started mentally abusing me. He became jealous and mean he was very controling and arrogant… I left him..

      • Rdawg said

        I’m out trapping and shit yes. But my girl only smokes weed and I never pressure her to do any of my hard product. She’ll snort a couple lines of blow here and there. But just because I sell drugs does not mean I fall into any of those categories previously listed. I treat my girl so good and she tells me that every day. She’s with me because she’s in love with me and I’m in love with her. Sometimes I am a little late yes. But only when she’s waiting to get picked up from her house. She really doesn’t get into my business, she knows what I do and that’s that. Sure she enjoys going out to eat all the time and what not. But the way I treat my best friends and my girlfriend compared to the drug fiend junkies I serve are completely different. The people I care about and are close to me can say that I am a damn good guy. Not every drug dealer is a piece of shit. It’s just damn easy money baby

    • Nonya bisnes said

      ^^^. You are a absolutely right! This was my first DD I ever dated because my common sense told me “no DD u already know the headaches that comes with it” he is arrogant and cocky (difference between confident and cocky) he’s very conceited and loves attention. Plus he works out and take shots. So you know how the juice head shit goes. Then always verbally abused but never put his hands on me but always told me how he “knock bitches out” when anyone needs a fagot he is there right away . I always thought he used ppl just so he can get off clean from anything! He tries to have so much ppl on his side and is allergic to the word NO! I’m trying to leave

  12. Anonymous said

    forgot to mention i.m finally leaving him ,he smells too bad!!!

    • SeenTheLight said

      Yup – possessive and controlling of everything including their women. Emotionally abusive – I also got the “who you dressing up for?” I say, “uh, honey – I’m going to work – yeah that’s right, in an office” and he starts thinking crazy – like I’m screwing every guy on the way to work and while I’m there. NO TRUST – They don’t trust ANYONE so don’t take it personally – just get out.

  13. Chanel said

    I used to date a drug dealer and all if this is definitely true, and I’ve learnt you can’t except to be loyal all the time, because if those jealous chicks who send death threats.

  14. Anonymous said

    My ex was a former gangster & drug dealer. The only reason we broke up was because of reason #4 – I had to spin up a story for my parents while we were together, but I knew I couldn’t keep it going forever. We are more than best friends to this day, as he is the most caring, loving, and faithful guy to the girl he loves. The image that he puts on is merely a fake image, not all of them are arrogant and selfish.
    But one phrase he said stuck to me, “Once a gangster, always a gangster.” So advice to everyone out there, be sure you can handle it before hopping into the relationship!

  15. RM said

    Can anyone tell me what reason a drug dealer would have that would force them to have to marry someone?..but only for a certain amount of time? I could go into a lot more detail but I’m just looking for some kind of answer to this. Because I can’t possibly think of any reason as to why a drug dealer (a female drug dealer at that), would have to marry someone. And btw, that “someone” is another female. Answers? Please…

    • Anonymous said

      If one of them gets in trouble for selling drugs and goes on trial, they don’t have to tell on each other. It’s law. …married spouses don’t have to snitch on each other.

    • Anonymous said

      because the DD is trying to trap you! (If you’re a female and he’s a male) he will try to get u pregnant so u can’t leave him. And will try to marry u so I can’t divorce him every jog is about entitlement when you’re married I suggest u get a prenup

  16. I recently got involved with a DD. He is an immensely sweet person, however I already know that the relationship will not last. He is a Meth addict who has been clean for nine months, however I understand that he will not be clean forever. One night, he’ll slip, and I own that possibility. He only sells pot, which I am luckily okay with. The funny thing is that we get along so well even though I have never had even a sip of alcohol in my life, much less marijuana or drugs.
    Is it worth my time to have fun with him for now and just go my separate way in a few months or a year or should I just cut my losses now? Thank you for your honesty and help,


    • Anonymous said

      Cut ur losses don’t waste time n life

      • Anonymous said

        Cut ties before you’re in too deep. That is a long dark road you’re headed down and that’s exactly where it all starts. Do not be niave.

    • Anonymous said

      Get out now…mine also was a meth user he started smoking it. And he changed he started mentally abusing me and he stayed angry all the time and I got out ..

  17. cc said

    Been with mine for 7 years. Just recently started to sell, mind you he was selling when we met but I don’t count that.! I hate it, it’s pathetic and morally bankrupt. BUT we were also broke. BROKE BROKE BROKE! so I get the”baby, it’s just for a little while” spiel. Nifty. He’s gone all night, misses my nephew’s birthday, is late, and quite frankly is being shady. I enjoy the don’t ask don’t tell policy we have in our household. I don’t want to know what goes on but I just can’t stop thinking about skanky coke hoes. He’s gone for hours and comes back reeking of pot so he was obviously hanging out at a buddies.

    Siigghhhh… Throw away a 7 year relationship because I’m having trust issues with my dd boyfriend? Ha. These are the days of our lives.

    • Kitty123 said

      Ugh just reading all these comments make me feel so happy im not the only girlfriend of a DD that feels like this! I’m with him nearly a year and he’s recently moved out with his friend that he sells with. When we first got together he said it was only “temporary” so he could save to go to Berlin cos that’s where we’re planning to move to. It’s really taking over our relationship, I’m crying all the time because I feel 2nd best CONSTANTLY! He never ever made me feel like that before. I tried to talk to him about it last night and he told me he doesn’t wanna argue about it because I’m never gonna be ok with it but he says it’s the only way he can make money. He also called me a hypocrit because I take drugs too, I disagree! I wouldn’t take drugs for the rest of my life if it meant he would stop 😦 we never get time together properly because he always has to run off somewhere for a few hours or meet somebody or he’s on the phone. Now don’t get me wrong he’s a good guy but I honestly think he’s so wrapped up in this that it’s taking over his life and I’ve been completely replaced, as stupid as it sounds. Even when we’re on dates he’s miles away! I don’t know what to do anymore.. 😦 I feel like because he knows he’s good at it and can sell, he’ll start doing it even when we go to Berlin and our hours will clash their too because of my 9-5 mon-fri job!! Ohhh help somebody 😦

      • Anonymous said

        I felt just like you do…and then came the cheating part and we talked about ithe said it part of the game and he promised to stop because he seen how bad it hurts me… Well 4 weeks ago I found out he still doing it and actually ishaving a affair with one of them….

      • Heather said

        Same here but eventually he’s gonna make you stop and continue doing his job than want you to contribute more by getting a job so he doesn’t feel used even though he wipes his ass with the money I used too in the beginning it was great got whatever I wanted whenever that’s how they suck in then they cut you down ame treat you like shit bc your an addict your using the same stupid shit he’s selling if he wasn’t selling its be a lot easier to quit we had that agreement too didn’t work out and know he tells me if I don’t like leave bc he knows I have no where to go and he’s getting worse and worse with the emotional abuse to the point I feel like scum like lower than scum bc I use the same shit he gave me what it’s like a complete mental mind fuck he gives me drugs in the beginning than treats me like shit for taking them yet knowing im an addict it’s all about control manipulation and possesiveness of his shit!!! Sorry im a little pissed got in a bad argument with him last nitgj and he said he didn’t need me he really put me down and hurt me I’ve been crying for two days straight as he’s in and out all hours of the day….

  18. Pretty said

    I dated a DD, very short time, I found kind, paid attention to me, first I stressed over age difference, I am considerably older. Was wanting find info in hope he would want a law abiding life if he met the right person. I desperately wish he would realize in a other aspects his potential and what a great life he could have not selling. My biggest fear, it consuming him and me getting into trouble, guilty by association. He doesn’t deal in front of me, I don’t know anything that happens. Im usually at work, I questioned him having a decent amount of money ….. Is there statistics of DDs quitting for a relationship and not return to it, % of that awesome experience happening. IT is the only reason I pushed him away, sigh.

  19. Mia said

    I am a nurse…I date a drug dealer for 3 years now. We even have our names tattooed on eachother so the love was there arc some point. As I’m maturing I find myself more in love and involved with my job while he is still just obsessed with his…I told him that these lives cannot co exist especially because we have children and we are expected to act as adults. He told me his job comes first and we won’t be able to be together if that’s how I feel. I have helped this boy so much in his adult life I’m just so insulted to be left in the dust that way…I don’t know if it’s because he has no education and this really is the only job he will ever have and defends it like one of his kids but…the big picture is the police know and once he’s caught hell have nothing. Yes, it was glamorous and the money is lovely but no amount of money is worth losing my kids or a job I love. It’s just hard to accept someone can toss 3+ years of a relationship away…I never loved someone so much. But then the adult in me kicks in agsin an decides I don’t want kilos of coke under the same roof my kids sleep I don’t want to know other drug dealers and I don’t want to be constantly offered drugs or lied to. I just feel he may have thought I was a different type of person than I am, and now it would best to separate, just very

  20. annonomys said

    All of this is true. I’d also like to add that living with a drug dealer can be very nerverecking. Currently all of the traffic swarming inside of our house is ridiculous. It sucks wanting to just hang out at home and sit and have a nice dinner when there are always interruptions and also people testing out the drugs inside in front of you. It gets uncomfortable as well as hard to be around. Me being an ex cocaine addict. It’s not easy having it around me. Bc once it’s offered I’m all in. Also my boyfriend has temper problems, used to be dangerous and now settled down. There’s a lot of things wrong with dating someone like this. If I can’t get him out of it..I don’t know if he ever will

  21. thatlonequeen said

    This, this has been my life for the past few years, it couldn’t be more true, dating a DD is one of thee single hardest relationships you will have to endure.. get ready for alot of lonely nights because he’s gone 24-7, jealousy amd trust issues constantly, arguments about money, feeling 2nd best all the time, and buying lavish things to make you forget how stressed you are being that ride or die, best friend, therapist, employee, partner girlfriend.

    • Heather said

      Please give me tips on how to deal with the females I know it’s strictly business usually I’m with him he gets shitty when they say you treat her so good he says bc im his girlfriend but in saying all that I use his product he knew and I knew what we were getting into but now for my health he wants me to quit

      • Anonymous said

        It’s hard dealing with the female clients my DD boyfriend haves sex with his clients… He loves to eat Pussy and when I found out I was so disappointed because that’s suppose to be a intimate thing between him and me not some random chicks.. He has apologized and said he won’t do it Again he lied a week later he did ..I left

  22. Saya said

    I got into a relationship with my good friend, we are coming up on a year mark of being together. He recently went away for work on a production, honest living…he hadn’t worked in over a year, in that time I helped providing food and clothes and whatever else to help him feel better/show my support. I just found out he has gotten into amphetamines while he has been on this job, reason being to stay awake for the long hours and to cope with the stress of being away from home. He has used drugs and dealt in the past, he now just wants to come back buy a gun and deal again. Whereas before, he had wanted to continue the honest living and have us move in together. I don’t do drugs…occasionally will smoke out to fall asleep, grew up with a strong religious background, make an honest living, and am very simple not after money or anything of that sort. I tend to be very caring and take care of the people I love and I genuinely love him. Already I have noticed changes, communication is a lot less, when there is he is in a bad mood or experiencing anxiety, when I call his phone goes straight to voicemail–a distance is forming. He has been asking if I can take it on…the fact he wants to deal again…from what I learned in love, a woman stands behind her man. I guess I am writing this for advice, I really just want a simple life…I know I need to talk this out with him in person when he returns and see just how much/how bad the amphetamine use is which is my primary concern. I don’t even know that if he deals again if that would mean he gets back into other drugs like coke.

  23. edie said


    Ask yourself: Would you date a regular guy who had 4 phones?


  24. edie said

    Its a shame when you realise they’re actually really sweet and you want to give it a chance, but alarm bells ring when you realise the guy doesn’t even have enough time to text you to initiate a relationship properly…plus for every text you receive that makes you think differently there are 5 that say “fire nugz”/”dank chedz” 😐

  25. Ryan said

    I have been a dealer 7 years and was in a relationship for the last 4. My business ruined my relationship in the end when things weren’t going so well but while things were good, she was fine with it. I quit my job “for the summer” (turned into a year) because.i lost money going to work. She liked that I was home all the time, could buy her a car and diamonds and go out for dinner every night, and when we would party, there was never a shortage of dope, we got free shit all the time, respected anywhere we went in town… like Henry Hill from (from.goodfellas) said “we were treated like rock stars with muscle”. But she got scarred when things got “too serious” and bailed. I tried going legit to get her back, but I can’t imagine leaving the life… it’s too good. Though it’s not a.life I would recommend getting into unless you plan on losing everything when things go bad… which I did and they always do.

  26. Liz said

    It is what you make it… The guy I’m currently dating (that will most likely turn into something more serious) sells not only pot (I’m a pot lover myself) and also sells harder drugs.. No it’s not at the top of the list of things I like about him but I’m not one to judge.. He’s been to college, he has a side company (that I’m pretty sure is a cover up business) and most importantly, he’s good to me. I trust him, I feel safe around him. He always puts my needs first and is a gentlemem. He’s also a few years older than me, has his own house and I love the maturity. I have to admit it is thrilling to date a DD, not only for the free drugs but I truly feel great being around him and can’t wait till the next time we see each other. I had no idea Id ever fall for the guy… It’s one of those situations where we both recently got out of a relationship, are taking things slow, but I can’t help wonder where is this gonna go? Is that the kind of man I want to be with and confine in? Sure it’s not your every day job, I like the uniqueness of it. I have no doubts that in the future he would support me, even a family perhaps. My main thing is, when you’re dating a DD how can you be sure you aren’t apart of his sketchy work? Meaning, he’s sketchy in general for being a dealer, so can I really count on him to not be sketchy behind my back when I’m not around? Idk whether I’m wasting my time or just having fun.. Could this really work? Help!

    • Simply_Amazing said

      You know what doll, if you are happy then stay with him! My bf is the same we’ve been together just over m 6months & he’s amazing! He has changed (for the best) as I knew him before he was a dealer.
      See how it goes and if he still treats you like a queen then stay with him! x

  27. Anon said

    UGH im “dating” one long distance. He was in love with me and i am wifey… but he cheats like all the time… so Im just over it. I hate when hes gone for long periods of time. He get kidnapped, and people text my phone saying they are gonna kill him… mind you this is long distance so its like what am I to do. I used to pray all the time for him… I just can’t anymore.

  28. Jazz said

    It’s nice to know I’m not the only girlfriend of a DD that feels like this! I want to know though, the way I met him was pure fluke. I’ve had several opportunities to meet him before as I was close with his friends, but only now our paths have crossed and it is very stressful. He treats me like a princess but can have occasions where he listens to his friends and treats me like shit (but will go back to being cute the next day) I have read the comments and many of you have said ur man leaves u while ur with him whereas mine completely ignores all of his lines and it’s up to me to force him to answer. Is this him testing me or does he take our relationship very serious? He has often told me that I make him “want to get off the strip” and that he wants to wifey me, and run away together (sooo cliche lol) I’m wondering if he’s just saying these things or if he means it? He completely changes around me, he’s cute and sweet then switches up when somebody interrupts our time together (switches on them not me). Before I came along he was completely focused on his money and he often tells me he’s not a sweet boy & he’s a gangster etc. but our relationship has proved otherwise. He constantly contradicts himself. I’m getting stressed though, I can’t lie to my parents about him so I tell them I know nothing which makes them more annoyed. He is always late by HOURS (which I’m getting used to) but when I’m late he gets annoyed and goes to buss a sale, which ultimately leaves me waiting still. I love him, I’d put my hand on the book and straight up lie for him, I’d go to prison for him, anything he needs I got or ima go get it. But I can’t deal with the constant switching, lying & lateness! Should I just leave while it’s early? Or will I get used to it? (It’s been about a month or two) please help 😦

  29. Simply_Amazing said

    I’m currently in a relationship with a DD and I must disagree with some of these points.
    He treats me like a queen and keeps his business separate from family life. I have only ever had one complaint about what he does and he took what I said into consideration.
    He is a great boyfriend and has been there for me through everything.
    I’m not with him for the money as I work at Uni and any money he has used to spoil me, I have put in the ‘holiday tub’
    I’m with him as he’s an amazing person.
    Out of the two of us, I’m always late and he has never been a douche to me or the kid.
    I think it depends on the person rather then the business.
    My experience being with one isn’t that bad.

    • Anonymous said

      I feel your comment. I’ve been with my dd for years. He treats me with much respect and always puts me first. Its almost like he worship the ground I walk on. Only thing is now we have a one year old child and I don’t want her around any of it. So I may have to leave the relationship and put me and my daughter first. I as well have a great job.

  30. jamilababy said

    Ive been trying to find someone who understood! My current bf is a hustler/ dealer..beyond the word. He travels majority of the time and i cant talk to him as much and it drives me crazy. He is an avid poker player and comes to my job which is a casino and stays at the hotel weeks at a time when he isnt out and when i say i get so irritated trying to keep his attention and focus!!! Now in a few weeks ill have him all to my self for a week for vacation birthday trip but im nervous. But the crazy thing about this whole situation is my grandparents like him my mom and my friends but i just cant shake that worry girlfriend syndrome….he constantly tells me things to keep my mind at ease. but worry just sets me into a frenzy

  31. curiousity said

    Im long over it, it was nice while it lasted.

  32. Heather said

    I just have to say thank you for posting this it helps me during rough times all these are true except mine is Johnny on the spot more like a family man and lives a double life. He doesn’t use and he’s very considerate and caring the problem I struggle with the most is having quality time with him even though we live together I’ve started school to try and get a life aside from his but it’s hard females hate on me and I get jealous from his females he deals with he does love me he’s proven it , it hurts the most when I try to make love with him and he leaves for $30 I feel unloved at those times tonight is one of them I chose to be with this man bc he pushes me to better myself he’s not controlling my family loves him he’s an all general white picket fence man he just chose to do this it hurts when he leaves when I’m here in my lingerie and told to wait til he gets back sometimes I feel like what if I wasn’t here when he did but I love it here he takes care of me in all aspects and I’ve spoken about spending more time but it becomes nagging

    • Heather said

      Please give me tips on how to deal with the females I know it’s strictly business usually I’m with him he gets shitty when they say you treat her so good he says bc im his girlfriend but in saying all that I use his product he knew and I knew what we were getting into but now for my health he wants me to quit I got about 6 months how am I going toquit when jj always around it constantly im going to try to come up with boundaries but he told me I’ll just have to leave the room

      • Heather said

        I hear you on that it’s the same way with me, he and I both say what the fuck do you expect Im his girlfriend not you , it’s wise not to make friends with these females though you see them daily if you even mention about wanting to spend more time with him it will blow up it in your has happened to me and I cut ties with the girl sucks bc he still deals her every day but regardless she was kissing ass bc they have to somewhat know our man is always gonna take our side but aside from the drama he’s still gonna get the money

      • Heather said

        Dude this is crazy I just read your post and it’s the same situation with me, he told me for health I have to quit and all that yet he knew what I did I knew what he did I told him it’d be impossible for me to be around it all the time and he also said well I guess you’ll have to the leave the room after he had a long talk with me I agreed to quit but I also had a long tearful talk with him he promised he will sell something else in a year when he quits selling I’ll quit but wow me and you should talk I’ve been having so many problems lately with dealing with the whole situation of living dating a drug dealer im head over heels for him

  33. Heather said

    This is so true to a t. This has helped me a lot I wish there was more… Every time I feel bad or lonely or second priority I read this and it makes me feel better my boyfriends a great man a family man just lives a double life. It’s starting to cause issues bc I use as well we have an arrangement and an agreement I stop when he stops the date is set. I guess my question is , is there more I can read up on like this this is the only article that is right on point

  34. Anonymous said

    I have been in a relationship with a DD for one year and I am head over heels in love. I didn’t know what he did for a living at first (I actually dreamed it and when I asked him, he admitted it) but that’s a long story… After reading this post and subsequent comments, I just wanted to say that my DD boyfriend has treated me like a princess this last year. He has wined and dined me, taken me away on my birthday, he collects me from work, tells me how beautiful he thinks I am, constantly checks if I’m ok, buys me gifts, takes care of my car, etc etc… Basically he has been a wonderful man who has showered me with love and affection and I am besotted. BUT something has happened in the last few weeks which has sent him into hiding and I don’t know what. He says that he doesn’t want me dragged into whatever it is and is keeping away, laying low and not calling. I’m not stupid, I know whatever has happened is serious and I have probably had a lucky escape, but I miss
    him so much. I don’t agree with what he does, but I got to know him and we have a connection that I’ve not had with any other man. The space he has created between us is killing me… I guess I’m naive… The DD’s lifestyle is another world… I guess I don’t fully realise the dangers because I’m not involved. I have read all your posts about rivals and deals gone wrong and it’s kind of alien to me… What sorts of things happen to make the DD flee? Enlighten me – perhaps it will bring me to my senses and give me the wake up call I need. Truth is though, if he turned up on my doorstep tonight, I’d be the happiest girl in the world. Sad, but true.

    • Anonymous said

      If he made a mistake or is being framed for something that was done (such as an ambush on a delivery, or a robbery etc) they flee because they are going to suffer. The issue is, their loved ones including you are now in danger as well. If he doesn’t handle it then it puts you at risk. My boyfriend was being framed for an incident before he got out of the streets and was acting super weird, turns out he was contemplating fleeing and staging a fight with me. Thank God it was sorted out and he was fine.

  35. Anonymous said


  36. Anonymous said

    This article is spot on. When I met my boyfriend he was highly ranked in the drug dealing industry with royal and respected blood in his veins. Everyone knew his family. He would step outside to take calls, take off at night to go somewhere for hours where he couldn’t have his phone on and he couldn’t tell me where he was going or why. He was in prison more than once. I am from the midwest and he couldn’t give me tours of certain parts of LA for unknown reasons/safety reasons. Turns out in the end it was all for that. Couldn’t be seen in the other gang’s territory, couldn’t reveal locations or names. There really aren’t many pros to it, sure the money can be nice but when you have to comfort your man because his buddy just got killed or when you find out it was supposed to be your man that should’ve been killed but by God’s grace he wasn’t there or even better you have to comfort him when his buddy died because he was trying to set up your man but the plan was foiled THE MONEY AINT WORTH IT! If you love your man, you don’t want him in this business. You say goodbye before he goes off to one of his late night “meetings” and you don’t know if you will see him later on or ever again or what. Then there is also the fact that you are now an accessory to the game. If something goes wrong for him and he is in trouble you are officially in danger.

    THE GOOD NEWS—>We fell in love and have found Christ. He paid his dues and was given honorable leave with promised protection from the big boss (whoever that may be, that is just what I call him). He hasn’t done anything with it

  37. Anonymous said

    My boyfriend is a dd and we had starte ddating 3 weeks ago and im kind of scared bc i know nothing about that life and im learning pretty quick.. He seems nice but i know that will all change eventually like today he had asked me to give addicts that i see with marks on there arms his number.. He is controlling and i want to end the relationship but im scared..

  38. Anonymous said

    Anyone have advice on life after drug dealing? Can someone change?I’m seeing a guy who used to be a pretty high up coke dealer. A year ago he moved cities to start a new life and business, but he still displays most of these characteristics listed here. He says he’s not involved with drug dealers anymore but did admit to laundering money for some of his old bosses occasionally. He says this was his old life, I’m a new man now blah blah. He’s a really smart and kind person but I worry he’ll miss his old lifestyle too much. I slowly find out more and more about his old/current life and I’m starting to lose trust for him. Can someone change from this lifestyle? I dont have any experience with drug dealers and I’ve never dated anyone with this ind of past.

  39. Merrygold said

    I’m dating a drug dealer who has people selling for him and he swears to me that no man will marry me but him an if I mess up in any way he will kill me

  40. MissCD said

    I love my boyfriend so much but this hustling thing has to stop! I have dreams of my own and I really want him to be in my path but the drugs has to GO. Yeah its money but dirty money & I dont want any of that around my family. Every night I lay down & think about his where abouts & is okay. I dont wanna go through that in future AT ALL.

  41. Renei-Synthia said

    All 10 points were pretty accurate, and it takes a certain type of woman to be able to date a DD. Yes, excitement never ends, but you have to be prepared for anything that comes up whatever it may be. My ex who I was with for almost 4 years was a higher up DD…sold only amounts in Pounds. It took a while for me to adjust into the lifestyle..but to be a real “ride or die” chick for this DD who is trusted by the whole “team”, you yourself have to be able to make sacrifices. Your time, your energy, your emotions don’t matter anymore. Anything that happens in his business you shouldn’t take personally. Trust is more important than money in this game..specially when he’s making $10,000 per transaction.

    I guess as long as you’re confident and stand by his side whether it’s rain or shine, everything will be alright. I never did any of the drugs, except for pot I would smoke once a while when the good stuff comes in..and he’s never forced me to do any of it nor did he do any of it in front of me. He was very respectful and sweet to me..and he always made time for me when I needed it.

    Now…I’m currently going out with this new guy…also a DD..much busier hours since he’s not really a higher-up guy….I just enjoy his company whenever he’s available..and not really looking to be his gf…I think this works better for me because it’s less stressful than being constantly worried and always looking behind you.

  42. Yana Lorenz said

    yes, its complicated…my bf is very very sweet to me, but i simply cant trust him. its not easy/its complex to see ur guy aproaching everybody on the street,i mean.. specifically..women, to try to sell his thing. because my guess is that if he can get intimate with them, the better. i wish i was wrong, but there was this difficult episode: he used to spend time at a woman’s house. he used to say he was there just to make his business, but why couldnt i go along??he never confessed but i know something more was def going on…and he goes to this neighbourhood to make his business along with his pals, but why cant i go.. “cause i dont want u to meet these bad dudes..

  43. JR said

    So glad I came across this page! I also happen to be the girlfriend of a DD.
    My story: I have known him since I was 10 years old. We grew up together and even went to the same church as well(where I met him ironically) as the years went by we saw less due to different schools, later he drops out. I moved to Florida for college and came right back after freshmen year to be with family and friends. Once I saw him at a party, I knew right then and there that I wanted to go out with him…if only I knew what I was getting myself into!!!! Thankfully he doesn’t deal any hard drugs and he is not around very many females. He is in a tight nit group of people who he does business with. But no matter how much he spends on me, he still fails to male me happy. I have told him multiple times that I just want his attention…! We can go to burger king for dinner and watch Netflix for a date I do not care I just want his company, in other words, a more “normal” relationship if that makes sense..I find myself waiting on him to do anything with because he is always waiting on someone to come over. I don’t care if it’s just business, why the hell must you call him at midnight?! Do you people not plan ahead or realize he is a person to? I know I shouldn’t complain, but I just don’t get it and probably never will. I absolutely loathe the phone calls. They always seem to ring at the worst time! Now given, he is a hard worker with now a real tax paying job. So this isn’t his life forever but when I notice that his customers see more of him then I do and I live with the guy, seems messed up to me. I have been with him for two years now, and I’m happy for him really I am we have been through a lot. I just feel like I need time for me. I know it’s selfish. He is very good to me and I know beyond a doubt he has never cheated,but this dealing thing is taking a toll on me. I have tried to make friends and to go out, but he either gets insecure or plain mad at me. Yet he leaves all the time. Given, his full time job slows him down but hey all the employees there goes to him so in a way it doesn’t. I feel so horrible for writing negatively about him, I love this guy! But these are my true feelings….and I have no one else to vent to. And that is even worse…thank you again for the article! I wished I read it two years ago

  44. Heather said

    This is so far the absolute truth from time to time I reread it to make me feel better yes the constant phone ringing. The use of product from me means he has complete control but he is very good to me in sense and is old school he doesn’t use product and is always on time and on point yes I believe which he’s admitted he likes the control I need to stop using but it’s awfully hard with him selling it …

  45. Anonymous said

    I’ve been in a relationship for a year with a dd and its wearing me out. I love him to pieces but the constant phone calls and leaving in the middle of the night is awful. I feel as if I can’t trust him. He says he’s on his way and it might be days before I see him. How do I trust someone who constantly feels they need to pick that over me. Please help

  46. Hannah said

    I have been dating my bf for a year he has been selling for a long time. I hate it. His phone never stops we can never make plans because he don’t want to miss a sale . Honestly I’m almost done with this.

  47. ema said

    I’ve dated a DD for 7 months now . When I first met him he told me he is a weed dealer but only small amount of weed. He sell and smoke weed, I’m a nurse and I don’t smoke either . He is an atheist I’m a devoted Christian . We clashed a lot but those misunderstanding seems to make us get closer . I don’t mind what he is doing , as long as he don’t drag me into his mess . sometimes he will leave me in the middle of the night but he won’t be gone for so long for me as Long as he is in 1 piece when he come back I’m okay with that . I don’t tolerate hi, but I guess overtime he just grow in me and I slowly accepted the way he is .1 night I went to his place and I saw bags of weed on the top of his bed I made a comment saying ” I thought you sell only small portion, this is illegal ” with that comment he went ballistic on me and ignore me for days . He finally talk to me and said we are just too different and that he know people won’t change . He don’t like me for flipping back and forth about his weed problem . He call me names I just ignore him. It’s non sense . He is a smart guy and he can do way better rather than selling weed all his life and I told him that . I continue my life, I try not to be affected of his absence I have nothing to loss. I just put it this way losing him is a blessing I don’t want to be drag of any mess that he might get involve .good luck to all those woman who is on the same situation as me . It’s not easy and it’s not safe . Why put yourself into a mess .

  48. yummyone85 said

    There’s a DD who lives right next door to me. I do not want his money or what he can get some girl. He os just sexy and I am 9 years older than he is. I just want to suck him off and I want him to ride me and that we do this once a week. I want his mouth and I want to touch him and have rough sex with him. And then I go back home. That’s it.

  49. yummyone85 said

    There’s a DD who lives right next door to me. I do not want his money or what he can get some girl. Like JLO, My Love Don’t Cost a Thing” He is just sexy and I am 9 years older than he is. I just want to suck him off and I want him to ride me and that we do this once a week. I want his mouth and I want to touch him and have rough sex with him. And then I go back home. That’s it.

  50. Anonymous said

    This is definitely a good article I just found but I’d like to share a little story and my perspective. My father sold drugs on and off my entire childhood(unless he was incarcerated) up until I was 14-15 years old. He did a bid in the state prison for 6 years total on a drug related charge he didn’t deserve but that’s another story. I grew up with nice stuff but lived in low income neighborhoods. He would take me, my mom, and my little sister all across the east coast wherever he was at at the time and we would stay in hotels to visit him. Usually we would be in Boston, Miami, or dc. I loved it and I’d like to add that my dad was no regular guy who sold nickel rocks an dime bags. He was the man and the shooter, I think they call what he was a wholesale distributor. When he got jammed up(by a hoe druggie) I was crushed. I had so much anger in me towards him I stopped visiting him or writing him. This caused many many problems later on as well. My mom and my sisters were really poor when he left, she pulled the single mom role off pretty damn good tho. Went from traveling place to place in nice hotels and having the newest clothes to owning one pair of kicks a year and living in the projects. Eventually when he came home for good he said he’d never get back in the game ever again. Me and him had major issues in my teens. He tried to make up for all the time lost but I still hated him for putting us through hell for all those years. He cheated on my mom countless times growing up, did drugs in front of me, drank heavily, beat my moms ass, and put holes all through the walls in the house. Me and him had constant fighting and the usual fist fight. Fucked me up so bad one time I just left at 16 and didn’t come back until I was 18. All the while she stayed with him, they separated legally for 2-3 years while he was locked but they are together still to this day. I thought this was how life was supposed to be so into adulthood I dated men who were similar in some way. I’ve dated only one guy who wasn’t a drug dealer and I thought he was a square. He treated me right but I ended up fucking him over and left him. Typical and I apologized,were good friends now tho. Every other guy I had sold drugs, some of them were junkies too. It’s a VERY toxic lifestyle in general for anyone used to it or not. I don’t advise any female to get into a relationship with them because it’s not what you think it’s going to be. That shit has a downfall. It’s not glamorous by any means. I mean that dope boys/trappers/drug dealers all fucking lie compulsively. They cheat on you cause it’s easy to and they are selfish. They’ll steal from their own momma and you. Most of them don’t respect females and if they don’t beat your ass they fuck u up mentally. That refers mostly to lower level drug dealers which is majority of which who I dated but is only MY perspective. They usually have two phones at the least one for business and the other for hoes/you/personal use. They’ll make u stash drugs for them be it in your pussy your whip or at your crib. They are on a 24 hour clock bc junkies don’t have a bedtime so neither do they. They will take your car and pick up one of the side bitches and ride around in it. I guess it’s perks to it too. You get some good recognition from his friends, they will think you’re a hoe at first but after y’all are together awhile they respect you. You learn how to finesse people out of things, learn how to count large sums of money, learn how to make drugs and sell them/weigh them if ur paying attention. It’s not an occupation it’s a lifestyle. Finally, these men should come with a warning label on their forehead it’s not worth the heartache. And definitely avoid if you have never been exposed to the streets because they will think ur a green bitch an get labeled a mark. I refuse to date another dope man but for some reason they like me a lot, and are constantly in view. I’m done here this was super long but take the advice I’m giving and put it in your mental file cabinet.

  51. Anonymous said

    I haven’t written here in a couple years, it’s nice to see that the forum is still active. It’s helpful to come here and read from time to time. I am still a nurse working two jobs, almost finished with my schooling to be an RN; and still dating a DD, same one. He had gotten pretty bad in a lot of ways , while I think the situations I have been through have made me stronger and able to juggle a lot in life at once. He has started using his product, which he always dabbled but now he has a serious heroin addiction. By some miracle he has been able to continue selling but I notice the money is not the same , I am getting stuck with bills and the excuses as just… Overwhelming. One day he’ll be “taking over this island and the biggest DD” but then when I ask for his portion of the car payment… I need to start throwing down for weed because “he spends all his money on that”. I’m a no bullshit kind of person… If you don’t have the money to smoke/use before the bills are payed then ya just can’t do it… I’m getting closer to the point where I’m going to have to leave him simply because he’s not allowing me to grow in life the way I need to, for my daughter . I have many goals he has none. Many times I have signed him up for school and technical programs but the motivation just is not there. He needs s future to be with me, I couldn’t be with a man who’s occupation is “low level drug dealer ” because now that he uses he doesn’t make the money he used to… I have given him my all, been loyal honest and done everything to try and help him but he doesn’t want the help. He wants to end up in and out of jail for the rest of his life. And only because he’s been lucky thus far he believes he will never be caught… I need to protect myself at this point. I’m sick of being around drugs, my quality of life has greatly dimished and I feel like I’ve done all I can for this relationship. The sucky part is we share an apartment and we are kind of stuck together until the lease is up :/

  52. Anonymous said

    All if this was good information. In the beginning the quick money is awesome and the attention he gives you. I am a beautiful woman that came from a corporate background. Now he’s hooked on his own product and can’t pay bills. They don’t like you to work because you will become to independent. Do do it. I’ve been trying to get my life back for 6 years lost friends and family. I now have PTSD. The lying, cheating and drama never stops.

  53. Anonymous said

    Dated 2 DD. Both turned out to be the same. I left the second guy because at least I learned from first one. Both weren’t drug dealers when I first started dating them but smoked heavily. Both of them got into it and were instantly hooked into the business. They never make time for you because they’re always on their phones or driving around far to make deals. So you start feeling kinda neglected or his feelings changed. So then trust issues begin to start. That’s when you know you have to leave that relationship because who knows who he’s selling to and what he’s doing with clients.

  54. Anonymous said

    I’m a very successful dd to an affluent crowd.

    Fuck you, I’m extremely punctual. I’m not running a delivery service. I find clients to be the harder to deal with. End users are selfish and impulsive, not to mention inconsiderate.

    It’s strange that if I’m with my friends, they don’t mind me checking my phones over and over, or walking away for a moment. I’m still spending 85 percent of the time with them. But a female? She wants that trip to miami, and expects 100 percent of your time. A man can be trusted to be away at work for 8 or 10 hours a day, but a drug dealer can’t be trusted to walk away for 5 minutes.

    And the best and most loyal clientele are your closest friends. You already trust each other. But they are not friends to the person presuming to date the dd. Why? Why would they trust one more bitch that can’t handle the lifestyle. They don’t have the assurance of security that they are hard wired to need. To the drug dealer’s friends….. you’re just one more slut that is going to leave their friend feeling like he doesn’t deserve anyone.

    I have so much money.
    I have so many beautiful friends.
    I am approached by gorgeous women every day.
    I wish i was an insurance salesmen, so they wouldn’t fade away.
    I am so fucking lonely because of the type of people whom write articles like this.

    My initially google search tonight was “drug dealer hard to find girlfriend”

    • Tanya.zee said

      Hi everyone, it’s great to have come across this post. I’ve been with my partner for 7 weeks and I’ve just found out yesterday that he’s a DD. It’s crazy to see how all the signs were in front of me, but I’ve been so stupid and blind to see.

      I don’t know what to do. I feel on edge and uneasy. He says he loves me and that he’s never felt this way before… And he’s also scared to lose me (even before I found out who he was). But he lied to me for 7 weeks!! To my face he told me he worked in ‘Car Recovery’ and dealing with clients accidents… Lol how stupid was I? Two phones (one personal and one for ‘work’), constantly late when we have a date and is always out late at night. I hate it al but I f#*cking love him. We have such good chemistry and a great connection. Bare in mind I haven’t even had sex with him and told him I ain’t doing nothing until I’m married and he respects this. Is he using me because I’m that ideology of that ‘good girl/ wifey’ materia?

      After reading everyone’s posts I’m just scared now more then anything. Is he cheating? Is he caught up in soft or hard drugs? Does he really love me? He’s proved so otherwise and constantly calls and texts everyday.

      I feel so shit since I’ve find out. Before it was okay and now that the truth has sunk in, I feel mentally down ;(

      • Vona said

        You have to go away. I was eith a DD in a very passionnate love relationship. But it changed me and i will never be the same again.

    • Anonymous said

      You’re a piece of shit.

  55. Anonymous said

    Sounds about right!

  56. felix martinez said

    this is right on point to the t! its amazing how i lived every single point of these senerios. my best advice to anyone in these shoes is to move on and dont turn back to this heartache and torcher. sometimes when u really love a person that is not going to change is best to just love them from a distance and pray for them.

    felix martinez

  57. no said

    dude that’s why i called trump to ship yall back to mexico so that I could sell the drugs instead of you .. can’t you see what is happening fool hahahaha..

  58. no said

    stealing all the fuckin money should be my drugs to sell not yours..

  59. Dee said

    I dated a drug dealer well.. I supported him inside the jail until he came out I know he loves me and I love him.. His so busy before phone won’t stop no time for me it’s frustrating but I love him I’m faithful to him.. Until he came out to jail he started to lie and I can feel his cheated on me.. He keep telling me no.. Then one day he told me he don’t know what he wants he just want to be single for a while until he came back to me in few months.. It makes me mad frustrated and hurt! Cause after all the effort and time I waited for him then that’s all he do.. I know I’m not perfect but I don’t know he told me he loves me he told me he cares but seems he doesn’t want to commit I understand what his doing that’s his life style.. I’m willing to accept him.. But do u really think it’s worth it.. I’m still holding but I don’t know.. I’m not a junkie i have legit job I just want to be with him..

    He told me it’s hard to find a girl like me that solid not after of his $$$ or anything but he told me his also scared of me being controlling and I’m insecure and jealous..

  60. Ex hustler's wife said

    I dated a hustler from the age of 17-26 so a course of 9 years. Aside from being a hustler he wast very abusive and controlling. I had good times with him but the bad out weighed the good in this scenario. Dating a man in the “GAME” is literally like a game. You take a lot of chances dating a hustler. Along with being a hustler the nice cars brings a lot of attention which is primarily the reason of you your man being in the game. You deal with a lot pullovers from cops. You basically live a double life because your man will not allow you have friends. When there’s a lot of money coming in and your friends or family see there’s also a million questions to be answered so sometimes you have no friends. When I dated my man I was well taken care of whatever I wanted I got but those were all material things that were bought. Yea I had nice things but I was also lonely. The street hours of dealing with a man who is hustler are 27/8 literally. You also have to move constantly and nothing is ever promised whatever you put on the relationship you will not get it back at all. Your honestly better off contributing your time to something that’s gonna make you money like school or internship learning a new trade because just money is power but not powerful enough to by back time or your youth. I loved my man with all my heart even more than myself at times. But in the reality of the situation is that there are no guarantees. You may even loose your self along the way. The stress is not with it maximize your youth and utilize your potential. The more money a hustler has the more females he has. And what sucks even more is that there aren’t many books on dating a hustler no self books nothing because it’s a secret society.

  61. mystery girl said

    I’m dating a drug dealer, he’s such a sweetheart and he shows me that he cares. Whenever I’m with him he’ll be getting calls and people will come to pick it up and yeah it sucks at times but that’s his lifestyle. He doesn’t do the drugs cause he’s in trouble with the law but he doesn’t want me trying other drugs so I only smoke weed with some of his real homies. If I ever decide to do a hardcore drug then he’d want to be there. He spends a few hours with me on the weekend and has his friend handle his business while we are together for a little bit. I’ve never been scared around him, if anything’s its opposite. I always feel safe, he takes care of me when I get to drunk or to high. I admit he is bad at timing sometimes but most of the time it’s me doing my make up that make us run late. He does get jealous but he gets over it cause he knows he was over reacting. He’s asked to pack stuff and hold stuff for him but if I don’t want to he won’t force me. When a big deal doesn’t go threw he does get pissed but I always try to just lay there and try to sell what he didn’t sell that day. I know he has to take to chicks because he sells to them but I’ve seen him curve chicks when they try to get with him. I feel like the lifestyle isn’t bad, you just have to have good communication and know your man. Right now he’s been perfect to me, we’ve argued because he’s been out late and I’m just at his place and I fall asleep buy whenever I wake up he’s always there so I don’t stress that much. Him and his homies live in the same house so they are always watching over me and making sure I’m good.

  62. Ang said

    My boyfriend is a drug dealer and we don’t spend a lot off time together and when we do the phone is always ringing and u do get upset when women text him as I always things ge cheating

  63. Bona said

    I was with a drug dealer for 3 years. For the firste 6 months, I had no clue. I just tought he really enjoyed getting togheter with his friends… With the yeard I started accepting everything and understanding the situation! We want to buy a house… We need more money than our 2 day jobs… Hes doing this for us. Its temporary… Lol. Fucking drug dealers…

  64. kristen thomason said

    I was a drug dealer girlfriend. A couple of them. No other man wanted me because they were intimidated others I didn’t know if they were my friend for me or because they thought it would help with him . I get raided hid name is on my record as an alias I lost custody of my kids. It was good money but wasn’t worth the price

  65. Ann said

    I am dating a drug dealer I did not no he was before it was to late and I loved him with all my heart the trouble is he is never on time and can’t spend to much time as always out dealing and when we’re together the phone is always timing also he cheats on me my work friends are worried about me and the rest don’t want to no as they say he is dangerous but I love him and will stay with him

  66. NotYB said

    I dated a DD for the very first time this year we met through social media. At first he came off like a respectable man he was 17 and I was 18 at the time. The reason that I dated him was because he was nothing like what you described on the list, but that slowly changed. When we turned 5 months he became a different man. He wasn’t as affectionate didn’t really want to spend time together. He would rather be playing 2k all night while on drugs or out with his “friends” doing DD shit. Any who I gave up everything in order for his “business” to do good. I gave up two of my jobs in order to live with him and take care of his needs. I sold my car to help him out with bills, etc… bought him outfits because he was in debt so he couldn’t afford it. My point is that I was a real ride or die for him like they say they need and all I got in return was a cheater and a compulsive liar who was always late and always let me down. The only good thing I got from this relationship was weed… Anyways he was a different type of drug dealer he was a nerdy one so another reason why we didn’t work out was because he would get caught watching porn and playing with himself every time he was on ecstasy. Now that I cut him off I’m dong a lot better!

    • Cheater and a compulsive liar! Yes yes !! He came out of prison into my home he never paid for but always had money for the latest trends and designer clothes xx

  67. Nice person said

    I am dating a drug dealer we don’t spend much time together and when we do the phone is always ringing. Also lost all my friends know one likes him because off what he does but I love him and will stay with him even though it’s hard

  68. Anonymous said

    I am wife of a dealer. He wasn’t working industry when We got together, but has a history in it. I didn’t grow up near it or use at any point. I knew his history and accepted it. It was his past. I wasnt stupid though. Addicts fall off the wagon sometimes. And he did. More times than he admits. According to him he recreationally used off and on for a few months but when he was laid off in January he went full on. I found out 3 months later after a lot of suspicion. I admit I was prepared to leave. I won’t go into how I found out but it contributed to my wanting out. The fact that I stayed is testament to how much I love him. Also he didn’t challenge me. He knew it was time to talk about it. For a few days we got it All out there . It was past due. Became closer and I felt a part of his life. Then he started selling again. His phone never stops. Especially “re-up” day. I’ve daydreamed of smashing his phone into a million pieces while they watched in horror. Most of them owe him money because he has been too easy on them when they are short. So we suffer instead. Bills go unpaid and we borrow money and never climb out of the hole he dug. My family isn’t aware of anything. And only one or two of His know. None of my friends know. I literally have no one. Its a lonely and painful life I don’t wish for anyone.

  69. Thankyou. This helped me this evening!
    My blog has followed the past 3 years being with a man who deals drugs and despite standing by a prison sentence and having a baby he has continued his lifestyle of dealing. Not to mention the cheating and nastiness!
    I want a better life xx

  70. danni said

    I was with a dealer for a year. Split up last month. I totally agree with this post. I think it varies for different types of dealers. When I first got with him he didn’t tell me he was a dealer, he hid it from me and I gradually found out as time went on but it was too late. I was already in love with him at this point and then the alarm bells started to ring.
    It all started with his paranoia, he would get paranoid just by me looking at him in the wrong way or being polite to his friends. I’m a bubbly person I didn’t see any harm in being nice I was used to normal people. I have a kind and generous heart and he took full advantage of that.
    He would talk to me as and when he felt like it and accuse me of doing him wrong when I stuck by his side through everything, even leant him the money to pay off debts when he was scared of people coming to hurt him. He hit me a lot and beat me up really bad but I was controlled and manipulated and felt like I could help him and just wouldn’t give up on him.
    Then one day through his scatty behaviour through his constant drug abuse he found himself in a situation where he couldn’t pay of the debt this time and no one could help him, so he had to move away which I still stuck by him, and the man he works for came to my door threatening to beat my dad up if I didn’t say where he was. what could I do? I didn’t drop him in it I simply rang my boyfriend and let him deal with it.
    He met the man and moved into his house to work off the debt and like an idiot I still stuck by him, he ended up on the streets and ended up having to live in a squat on a flea ridden matress which I stayed there with him, helped him clean up the flat. I couldn’t watch him go through this alone. He said once his debt was paid he would give it up but he didn’t. He got pressured into doing it again and I was out of the picture. He would start treating me like shit and everytime we spent time together he would get shit for it and threats would even be made towards me because of it. However, truth is, he wasn’t a big man, he was a scared little boy, he wasn’t man enough to stick up for me because he felt that by being part of the group made him a bigger man, it was easier for him to take it out on me because he was too much of a coward to stand up to the people that were really causing the problem. Which meant I had no back up to stand my ground either as I didn’t want him getting in shit for it. He would slag me off to them and slag them off to me like a little bitch! At the time I thought he was a man but since ive split up with him ive realised what a coward he really is! he is 28 and has a daughter that he doesn’t see because of him being so governed by this lifestyle and lives in a bedsit! I’m over him but I’m not fully over the trauma he put me through and the emotional and physical abuse and the manipulation! Since splitting up with him I’m doing really well at uni and I had turnt to god and I pray to find forgiveness within my heart to find peace within myself! I try to feel sorry for him! he lives a lie he doesn’t realise he is being manipulated too he is also vulnerable! He didn’t like the truth I spoke because it contradicted the lie he lived! He doesn’t realise that the people he works for do not want whats best for him they just want money! but it seems to make him feel like a man! If only he could see it the way I do! My love for him has turned to hate and I now see him as a coward and I feel sorry for him in a way! The reality isn’t glamerous at all! Its horrible and when you move on to better things you realize how pathetic it really is

    • Anonymous said

      Ladies, it’s been a comfort reading all your comments along with of course this article! Just to know that there’s people going through the same thing, especially when, as you all know, it can be a very lonely situation. My partners a DD, had been for a long time. I slowly found out the longer our relationship went on, by the time I really knew he was still selling it was too late, I was in love. Now we have a baby. He’s never abused or threatened me, I actually like most things about him. But just the stress alone from thinking about what may happen to me/him/our family is a lot to deal with. He genuinely plans to have a career change as soon as he has the money to start a new business, but I don’t know if he could leave it. It’s all his known for so long. We don’t even have much money right now so I’m not like living the high life or anything! I have no plans of leaving him but I will if it continues for too long. Wish we could all have a proper group chat! But I feel I have to be anonymous :/

  71. Young one said

    Ok so I’ve been seeing this guy and he is a DD but he is also a user. I do a little myself everyonce in a while but not too often. He doesnt pressure me into doing anything and If I ever want to try something new he gets it for me. We are both pretty young. (20) he has a child thats a baby and he makes sure his baby has what he needs. He goes between sleeping at my place to his baby mamas cuz thats the only way for him to stay the night with his son at the moment. He hasnt defined what we are yet but he talks to me more than most and we Fuck on a regular. Ive known him since we were kids and we have dated before (there is love there) but I feel he doesnt want to drag me into all his shit since I just tried drugs for the first time here recently. I know he trusts me bc he will leave me with his supply at times. But the thing is is that he doesnt make a bunch of money all the time. He dont spoil me unless I want to try a new drug. I take it as he has a kid he has to make sure is ok and hes only 20 so I cant expect him to be too successful at this moment. I dont mind him being a DD and a user. I grew up around all of that. I just wonder if its worth it or if maybe I feel like I like him more than he likes me. Sorry for the long post but I need help guys. Also unless he is super geeked out he is always so sweet to me.

  72. Jennifer said

    I just got out of a relationship with a dealer and your article was definitely a check off list.

    – He is friends with all of his exes.
    – He will put everyone before you because he knows that you genuinely care and will be there
    – He will resent you in the future if you try to pull him away from dealing. he will bring it up over and over again.
    – Cheats because he’s constantly surrounded by people who always want something from him.

  73. Rozlynne Rosser said

    Hi Im a 26 years old mom who started dating at drug dealer when I was 19.
    Drug dealers are clever an like to wrap you around there finger. My ex boyfriend is 21 now, he a drug dealer an very controlling, possessive, manipulative, an immature. He doesn’t have a job doesn’t plan on working period so he looks at me for money, if I don’t give him money for his “reup” …. then he acts a fool, verbally, physically abuse me an I feel absolutly sorry an guilty for him so I give in. We were together for a 1 year an 3months just broke up with him last month.
    He was breaking my self esteem down an my family an friends didnt care to much for him either, I had to let him go.
    Love & Respect yourself you come first no matter what. God will love you an direct you to everything that’s more positive that will keep you at peace.

  74. Amy said

    When i first met my DD bf he wasn’t dealing. He wanted to spend time with me and would text and call. I fell in love with him somehow. Then when we decided to officially date things were ok but then spent less and less time with me sometimes he was gone for couple days. started using girls that had cars for rides. It made me crazy jealous. Then i was in the wrong for being jealous and expressing my feelings. Time together was spent arguing about other women and him not spending enough time with me. Well, we broke up for short time and found out he had sex with one of the girls he knew. Devastated. Couldn’t figure out why he would want someone like her, a thief and a dope whore. He would stop into my apartment every few days. Then he got arrested and spent 45 days in jail for some pretty serious charges. Guess who was there for all that? He apologized up and down for treating me like crap. Found out he slept with yet another girl. I helped him bond out and yes he went right back to dealing.
    He is a little better this time as far as being home more but the endless calls, texts, people stopping over, him being gone countless hours, him being nice to people who could care less about him when he’s incarcerated. There are no “true” friends in this game. GAME OVER. I am physically, emotionally, and mentally wiped out.

  75. Naturalstreetfreak said

    I used to deal and I loved it. I enjoyed the relationships I had with my customers, except when their tick is due. I liked the little control it gave me over other people’s lives: the phone calls; couple times I had threaten someone or show up at their house. Although I eventually became a heroin addict, tried to go straight from dealing, lost one package and never recovered myself. I could start again tomorrow if I wanted to, but once you are out of the constant rhythm that dealing becomes; it’s refreshing to stay out.

    My ex-heroin dealer and I had a strong relationship. He trusted me. He invited me to his house chase gear every so often. Something he didn’t do for a lot of people. He made me very aware of what I was getting into as well. “You’re a wee bit too smart for this game, lad” “take a week off” “you’re becoming a
    Smack heid.” Etc. But as he and I, and anyone who has delt, knows that dealing involves adopting some corrupt morals and rules to live by. Right at the top is never say no to a sale. Don’t worry if you’re ruining someone’s life. It’s his business, he’s a big boy.

    It does wear you down over time. All the phone calls and the lying to your family. The constant paranoia. It got so bad. Driving half away across Scotland with enough drugs on you to get a year in a prison, drunk and tripping on k, meeting totally strangers in a car park. I’m sure you can imagine the fear. It got to me and now I’m a newly recovered heroin addict and alcoholic who’s disassociated himself from all his good friends. Who’s family has to constantly watch him. Who’s arms are still bruised and who has hardly any veins left. Who sits and reads articles about dealing and confusefly remembers the “good times.”

    One of the funniest things about dealing (or being a junky, really) is the lines you find yourself crossing. Dealing To and with proper messes and menaces, real criminals who’ve done time or stabbed or kidnapped someone. People you romanticise
    In films but never thought you’d spend time with and end up liking or somewhat being friends with. Trying gear. Shooting up h, smoking crack.

    Even just the houses you find yourself in: creeps rolling about the floor, gurning, crazy eyes, crushing up pills and and gaking them up. A seriously ill looking girl who needs a doctor
    More than another line. The stupid shit talk over lines of C of mkat. It takes away the glamorous notions about dealing when you realise your main customer base are absolute fannies you would never normally speak to. Although I admit again that these relationships have a few special cases that fuelled my interest in the whole

    Yes yes it is an experience and an education. If you have the balls, stupidity or craziness it’s worth a shot. Dealing I mean, not heroin. Although a shot of H would nice just now hehe.

  76. Lala land said

    Hmm interesting thoughts and replies…. so I’m in a relationship now with a DD… We ADORE each other like nothing else and left both our previous partners for each other. I’ve never felt more loved and more impactful/meaningful in someone’s life… I can show him a kind of genuine love, patience, dedication, understanding, and care he’s never had in his life, and he shows me every day how to live with integrity in a world without, how to stand up for yourself, and how a man should really treat a woman. Every one that knows us says we are the best thing that ever happened to each other. I’ve never felt so comfortable being myself and, for the first time ever I’m thinking about having a baby (eventually)…

    I’m 24. White. Been on smack for 5 yrs. just finished college. Was homeless with my ex part of my senior yr to support drug habit rather than housing…
    He’s 35. Really really dark-skinned. Has two kids with different women. They didn’t let him name either of them. He was me and my ex’s dealer for about 2 yrs before we screwed that and openly started being in a relationship.

    Here’s the thing…. say what u want about “junkies” but you can be an addict and still maintain the utmost respectable values for who you are and how u treat people.

    Another point: I saw him every day. Saw him more than anyone but my ex. At some point he started trusting us enough that we could hang at his house or his family’s house to get high and we would sit and talk… long story short the ex started getting on crack, stopped caring about me, and stopped upholding any integrity. He stole from me, sold my shit, fucked over my friends, list goes on…. I started seeing my DD alone, hanging out with him more, getting him to open up to me more and more…. turns out he was having really really hurtful problems with his BM too… we helped each other be the best ppl we could be but leave those ppl behind who were physically verbally and/or emotionally abusing us and our friendship blossomed into a deeper love…

    The initial reaction was that I was a whore screwing him for drugs and he just wanted some tight white pussy. Nothing could be farther from the truth. We don’t let my use affect either of our success by me paying his value for everything I use so he doesn’t lose anything.

    I just wanted to share this because a)the age and race difference opens eyes alone b)now knowing he’s also my DD made ppl question our relationship and c) this is the best relationship I’ve ever been in. I’m not a typical user and he’s not a typical dealer tho. This can’t apply to everyone. Just don’t judge a book by its cover

  77. Sin said

    im not a drug dealer but there’s this guy that ive been talking to who is one. Its been 2weeks now since we know each other, he told me the first day that he belongs to a mafia thing but they dont hurt people and i didnt ask more questions also you’re right about the fact that he’s always late… Anyway today we were talking about jobs and i mentioned that the people who focus on their jobs usually look very cool and he asked me whether he’d still look cool to me if i knew that his job is selling drugs and that he’s very good at it, i did knew that he’s in a mafia but drugs, it didnt occur to my mind… Im not in love or attached to him yet but i do think that its fun to talk to him so im just wondering whether im ready for this or not and what to do about it

  78. ebz said

    I ended up dating a drug dealer, the high end type, as in his absents effects the market type. He made sure his clients had the best of what was selling on street that was the best and operations went smooth. We started spending time together only Exchanging kisses here and there. A month or two into it, one night he just disappeared. I thought i did something and tried to contact him so i can receive some closer on the matter, then i find out couple of days later that he was caught by police at a car park somewhere and now in jail. So he ended up calling me from jail and we developed into this weird relationship, he was steaming hot but to cold to touch. mind-boggler! After 4 months time and 1 month of rehab, he was granted 7 weeks bail untill his next court case with a 10pm curfew.
    2 weeks into his bail time, he ended up right back where he was, could not believe the dedication he had dealing that he puts his life on hold. At times i like the ride and had a bitch about it, tried to show other ways of living and happiness, but i only drained and hurt myself. We were close but shared a little, and we shared a lot and became apart. He made me feel uncomfortable when i wasnt with him and felt uneasy like im in the way of his work when i was with him.
    Surprising fact to me was when i went to his place and his family was strict and religious, the mum and dad so oblivious to the whole thing of his sons life. I found that crazy.
    At the end of this chapter the court decided more then 3 years in jail. He could even be lying about that to keep me out of trouble, who knows? Was a little painful and a wakeup call. i knew it was wrong but i was powerless to the surrendered of ones self to addiction to drugs and attention. Still i was lucky to pickup my pride and dignity laying on the floor, i kissed him gently but slammed the door on the way out.
    Simply follow corruption and you will be corrupted, then spread that corruption to get others corrupted.

    needed to get that out, thanks guys..

  79. Jane Purchase said

    I’m at my wits end .. with waiting being lied to .. and my kind nature being walked all over .. No he tells me nive thing’s promise not to b so secretive… and I forgive him and he does it again …

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